Am I ?

Am I a really brave person? Not really. Am I a really smart person? Not really. Am I a brilliant writer? Not really. Am I a really lucky person? In some ways, yes indeed.

These last few weeks have been a really trying time for me and all those around me. But the continued love and support that I get from all of you is heartwarming and incredible to say the least. Even though I do not have the strength right now to talk to each and everyone of you I still feel that very strong good vibe.

Many of you said at the very beginning that "WE" were in this together. At first I did not understand what "WE" meant. Now I very much do. There are too many stories to tell so I will let the blog speak for itself. I read and cherish each and every comment.

So what will get me through this in the end? "WE" and of course you all.

How I wish

You have no idea how I wake up every day and think that this is the day. This is where I start seeing improvement. That this is where I see less swallowing pain.

I know the doctors said it could be two to four weeks to see improvement. I guess they base it on the residual radiation effects to leave your body. We will soon be coming up on two weeks so lets hope I am at the low end of the improvement time scale.

Friday & Weekend Update

Unfortunately nothing much has changed. The swallowing pain is still very evident. I have passed most of the last few days sleeping and trying to eat. The eating is really difficult so I have to rely on Carnation breakfast supplements and Ensures etc. Not too delightful but at least I am getting the vitamins and minerals my body needs. This is a shit ordeal! Like all of you, I hope to see an improvement soon.