Strange title for this post but I think it's appropriate.
Speaking from experience, something strange happens when you are battling cancer and you are given good news. It is something akin to the Stockholm syndrome. You are so resigned to the treatments and medications that you become reliant and dependent on what you are being given. All of a sudden, when the treatments stop because of good, positive scans, you seem to flail around looking for more treatment or more medication. Almost not wanting to accept the good news for fear that it may eventually turn to bad news. You come to accept the grind and expect it to go on indefinitely. Well, the hell with your "captors"!
The reality is scary/weird. You will always be looking over your shoulder, so to speak. You will always live scan to scan. The quality comes from how you choose to live that time between scans - Carpe Diem. What's over your shoulder shouldn't concern you - every day is a gift. Whatever happens, you have to deal with it. I have found out that you cannot run from this.
No, I'm not stoned or on heavy meds. Just imparting some worldly bits of drivel.
Carpe Diem.
Speaking from experience, something strange happens when you are battling cancer and you are given good news. It is something akin to the Stockholm syndrome. You are so resigned to the treatments and medications that you become reliant and dependent on what you are being given. All of a sudden, when the treatments stop because of good, positive scans, you seem to flail around looking for more treatment or more medication. Almost not wanting to accept the good news for fear that it may eventually turn to bad news. You come to accept the grind and expect it to go on indefinitely. Well, the hell with your "captors"!
The reality is scary/weird. You will always be looking over your shoulder, so to speak. You will always live scan to scan. The quality comes from how you choose to live that time between scans - Carpe Diem. What's over your shoulder shouldn't concern you - every day is a gift. Whatever happens, you have to deal with it. I have found out that you cannot run from this.
No, I'm not stoned or on heavy meds. Just imparting some worldly bits of drivel.
Carpe Diem.
Adrian
ReplyDeleteIts not drivel. We get so busy taking care of what must be done that we forget that life is short even at the best. We have to remember the moment while taking care of the long term.
Bob P